of college and i think im goin thro wat everyother person in my shoes would do. i mean i like it here and i lovethe ppl. but i also love home and them ppl there. i feel like i belong and its not like my classes are wow so hard cuz there not there just a challange i have that i kno i can ans will evercome. but i just feel like if i like it here too much that im like in some way betraying my other ppl and its like weird. but its also weird that like simple stuff i never thought i needed and craves so bad i never thought if till now. like a nail clipper and flip flops to walk around the room in. simple daily things i totally belittled and its like wow. im going home this weekend to pick up somemore things and to like hang with maria and friends. cuz like thats wat i do. i mean i feel bad that this 2 weeks that im here she has to be in my casa and bored or at least i hope shes not. i mean theres like church and stuff that shes gonna start goin to again. oh and the prices of text books here are like wat the fuck is this ?!?! i mean at least in one of my classes the proffesor got them for us and there like loaners but still im rackn up a good 4oo for books alone. ugh !
any ways im going home for the weekend and lets hope that it can make me feel better.
