ugh

his name is jeffrey moronta and i am obsessively, subconsciously, out-of-my-mind in fuckn love with him. i think if him when i first wake up and dream of him as i sleep in peaceful bliss with him in my mind. i kno im going to regret this but i have to cut him off. i feel like im just bringing him down and its not fair to him. does anyone else feel like the person there with deserves more and its just something at the moment that we just can fulfill for them? he wants more then i can just give him right now and i feel pained that it has to be like this. guys are just part of life that most females want to get rid of but are terrified to do because we really want them and in someways we kinda need them. i need him. i kno i kno ikno im going to lose my mind these next few days, weeks, months and most likely years but its just wat im going to do. and i hope that he will be wise enough to just go on and live. no not just live but enjoy life and all that good stuff.